The year that changed my life

As I sit and reflect on 2014 it has been an amazing year. I can’t help but to feel slightly guilty for being so happy about this year. While I gave birth to the most amazing tiny human ever my cousin Linda had a massive stroke and is now unable to take care of herself. I have watched my aunt care or her now disabled daughter. My mother and I have been here to help along the way. Linda was so active and out going. To now see her laying in a bed all day hardly able to talk breaks my heart. My heart breaks for her daughter as well. She’s used to her mom not only doing everything for her but doing everything with her. The kid's father UGH don’t even get me started on him. *eye roll*
On March 6, 2014 I was shopping with Danielle and went into labor. I knew my whole life would change but I had NO idea. I tried , waited, prayed and begged God for a baby for 10 years. I begged for another opportunity to get pregnant. It happened. It happened with the wrong person. At 22 weeks he walked away. I soldiered on. I had to I had no other choice. My daughter needed me. I’m the only person she has 100% of the time…..or so I thought. My family and friends have stepped up in ways I could have never even imagined. They have jumped in whenever I needed or wanted anything. I’m not one for asking friends and family for anything so it always makes me cry happy tears when they just randomly show up for Kennady or I. Amy , Danielle, Laura and Darlene have been beyond amazing. I’ve needed a lot of support in 2014 and I have gotten it and more. Amy held my hand as they cut me open and pulled Kennady from my body. She slept in a chair next to Kennady’s isolate for days while she was in the NICU. My mom stayed in my room with me for 4 days. Danielle came to visit while I was in the hospital. Laura called , sent gifts and kind words. My Aunt has done everything. Too many things to even name. They have all been by my side. They don’t know how much they truly mean to me. I’d be insane without them.

All in all 2014 has been happy, amazing, fun, mind blowing and sad all at the same time. I've been very blessed. God has protected Kennady , my mom , my Aunt Judy , my friends and I. I pray for continued protection.

I pray that 2015 is even more amazing. I pray that the hobbit just stays away and leaves us alone. I’d just die if he ever hurt her. I’d die if ANYONE hurt her. His anger is just so out of control and she can’t defend herself. People may think I’m wrong but my daughter HAS to come first.

I hope everyone’s 2015 is awesome , filled with joy and love.